Today, you might look at me and see a single mother of two grown children. What you won’t see is the rest of the story. You see, I used to live a life of drug addiction, abusive relationships, binge drinking, and sexual promiscuity. That was before coming to the Lord. At that time, I believed in God, but I didn’t believe He forgave me or loved me because I was so deep into my sins. God first revealed Himself to me when a group of Baptist women came knocking on my door. I was at the bottom of my Meth addiction. The women prayed for me that the Lord would reveal Himself to me and that I could see His love for me.
After that, I started reading the Bible, praying all the time, and started listening to bible radio. I even called the chaplain at the Redmond Police Department to ask questions about how filthy my sin was compared to a Holy God. I couldn’t find the answer there so I searched the scriptures more. I read where God said, “You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart” (Jeremiah 29:13). I asked Him to reveal how He views sin in me (and in the world) and He did. I repented and cried my heart out, begging for forgiveness.
Since then, Jesus has never given up on me, even when I have slid back into some of my old sinful ways. He lovingly changed my heart and gave me peace. I no longer feared death, had unconditional love for complete strangers and I had joy and a song in my heart. I will never forget it. It was the happiest I had ever been. Then Satan attacked me again with thoughts once again that I was going to Hell because of guilt from past sin in my life. I believed my children didn’t love me anymore and I had great guilt over how I had mothered them.
Since then, God brought me to Calvary Chapel South. He led me to take the Healing Hearts bible study. I learned how sins of my past have affected me physically. On Monday, November 7, 2016 God revealed His love and forgiveness by working a miracle in my body. As my bible study leader prayed for the pain in my body, she watched as God healed me and saw one of my legs grow to the same length as the other. We both felt and heard a popping in my left hip. I rose to my feet with tears running down my face, I proclaimed, “God loves me! He forgives me!”
I want others to know that no matter what sin you’ve done, or how deep you’ve gone in sin, He loves you and will forgive you. He wants to heal you, just like He healed me. Don’t listen to Satan’s lies that God doesn’t love you or that He hasn’t forgiven you. He has! If you live alone, know that God is there with you and loves you. You have a church family that loves you too, because God doesn’t want you to be alone.